Yup, after having 2nd opinon from different doctor. I was much relieve on my mum conditions but however she was schedule to have another blood test next month to indicated whether the liver malfunction problem lies on the medication she is taking or really my mum age is catching up and started to malfuction. However, been praying for her.
Since she have to stop the medication thats means she need to watch her diet and kinda sad for her coz she only can take vege and fruits which no no meats. No oily thingy for her too...now like everyday I will nag on her not to cook oily foods and reduce the meat portion too...
Hope that next month quickly come as can have the blood test to see whether the problem lies on the medication. Just need somemore time...
Haiz...worry...
Friday, November 23, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
Unpredictable
Its been a long time that I didn't making effort to blog. Alot of things happen...Been working stressful in my work. Try very hard to learn more things and gain more experiences like helo landing and fire fighting. Try very hard...but the more I want, I couldn't focus. I believe there is a will, there is a way. Coz God will provide me the strength and comfort.
Haiz...I'm trouble by my mum health conditions. Was away for a week for work commitment and heard bad news from her when I was back. Firstly, her middle finger got a swollen with a bump or sort of turmor like that which she need to go for an minor operation this end of the month. She was worry about the medical bills. I told her not to worry coz her company should pay for her medical bill as it was due to work related so there should have compensation on it.
However, things got worst as two days later she receive her blood test report which indicated her high blood pressure got worst and on top of that, her liver diagnostic indicated that there is something happen on her liver. I am so scared, I dunno what I can do now. All I can do is to calm down her, saying that maybe the report was a mistake and sugguest that she should go for another blood test to comfirm. Am I bluffing myself? I am worry about her. I trying to control my emotion.
Life is so unpredictable, no one knows whats going to happen. How I wish is me, coz at least I'm insured as my mum didn't got any insurance as she is quite thrity on herself.
I really not yet prepare for anymore bad news...
Haiz...I'm trouble by my mum health conditions. Was away for a week for work commitment and heard bad news from her when I was back. Firstly, her middle finger got a swollen with a bump or sort of turmor like that which she need to go for an minor operation this end of the month. She was worry about the medical bills. I told her not to worry coz her company should pay for her medical bill as it was due to work related so there should have compensation on it.
However, things got worst as two days later she receive her blood test report which indicated her high blood pressure got worst and on top of that, her liver diagnostic indicated that there is something happen on her liver. I am so scared, I dunno what I can do now. All I can do is to calm down her, saying that maybe the report was a mistake and sugguest that she should go for another blood test to comfirm. Am I bluffing myself? I am worry about her. I trying to control my emotion.
Life is so unpredictable, no one knows whats going to happen. How I wish is me, coz at least I'm insured as my mum didn't got any insurance as she is quite thrity on herself.
I really not yet prepare for anymore bad news...
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Updates
Yup...Its been a while that i didnt blog. I also dunno where to start.
Let see...well, actually yesterday during the service somehow I have a vision. This vision is that i somehow see myself getting a a stall in a coffeeshop, set up a stall that sells food. The signboard is call - Anchorage (a place to stop and rest).
Found this name very interesting, it is a place for ship to stop-over. Life is just like a journey, we need to stop to rest and garb a bite. I hope that in the near future when i finish getting my skill upgraded, I will set up this stall. Even it is small one, but this is a place where people came here for a bite, a place for people to rest, a place for people meet, a place for people to stop, a place for people to gather.
Hoping this place can bring something special to people whenever they are happy or sad.
Let see...well, actually yesterday during the service somehow I have a vision. This vision is that i somehow see myself getting a a stall in a coffeeshop, set up a stall that sells food. The signboard is call - Anchorage (a place to stop and rest).
Found this name very interesting, it is a place for ship to stop-over. Life is just like a journey, we need to stop to rest and garb a bite. I hope that in the near future when i finish getting my skill upgraded, I will set up this stall. Even it is small one, but this is a place where people came here for a bite, a place for people to rest, a place for people meet, a place for people to stop, a place for people to gather.
Hoping this place can bring something special to people whenever they are happy or sad.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Unknown $$
Okie...this really freak me out...It has been continuously 3 mths that every end of the month there is always credit sum of money into my account.
Although, It is not a huge amount of money but this money is given by SAF. But usually i get my salary on the 10th. Now I still trying to figure out why they keep on credit in money every end of the month. I only submit 1 USMS for last month and I got the money already. What other possible factors that they can credit money in...I think i should try to ask the seniors around...
Sometimes when money pour in must have its purpose, but in this case, I still don't really know why they keep on credit in. Thats freaking my out. Now I don't whether I should use it or not..but one thing is that 10% of this sum of money surely will go into tithing.
Don't know should call up to check or not...
Although, It is not a huge amount of money but this money is given by SAF. But usually i get my salary on the 10th. Now I still trying to figure out why they keep on credit in money every end of the month. I only submit 1 USMS for last month and I got the money already. What other possible factors that they can credit money in...I think i should try to ask the seniors around...
Sometimes when money pour in must have its purpose, but in this case, I still don't really know why they keep on credit in. Thats freaking my out. Now I don't whether I should use it or not..but one thing is that 10% of this sum of money surely will go into tithing.
Don't know should call up to check or not...
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Overseas Deployment
As most of my friends know that I will be going for the Overseas depolyment next year in 2008.
Thank God! The sailing date have just came out it will be on 26-Jun till 3-Aug 2008. However, this is just the initial dates so mostly the sailing won't be so long. Not like 4 mths. But look at it, the sailing may take up 3 mths which it won't be making me so much of homesick afterall.
Will be updating more as time comes...
Thank God! The sailing date have just came out it will be on 26-Jun till 3-Aug 2008. However, this is just the initial dates so mostly the sailing won't be so long. Not like 4 mths. But look at it, the sailing may take up 3 mths which it won't be making me so much of homesick afterall.
Will be updating more as time comes...
Friday, August 24, 2007
Ouch!
Pain! Pain! Pain!
Now I have a blue black on my right knee with a size of my palm. Sob! sob! Why so suay? Yesterday really not my day...first come the unauthorise transaction now come the blue black thingy.
Haiz...wat to do...I think my dark cloud is here...
Now I have a blue black on my right knee with a size of my palm. Sob! sob! Why so suay? Yesterday really not my day...first come the unauthorise transaction now come the blue black thingy.
Haiz...wat to do...I think my dark cloud is here...
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Hack or Suay?
Well, today was looking at my internet banking and found out that i have 2 unauthorise transactions. With a total sum of $277 been deducted onto my credit card.
I was so shocked coz the transaction dates were like donkey years ago. One was dated on 20/12/2006 and 3/3/2007. Both transactions came from the same company and I already reported to my credit card company and ask them to make investigation on this matter.
Beside these, I also email to the company that have deducted my money. Now I will see how thing goes...hope that I can get back the money.
Haiz...
I was so shocked coz the transaction dates were like donkey years ago. One was dated on 20/12/2006 and 3/3/2007. Both transactions came from the same company and I already reported to my credit card company and ask them to make investigation on this matter.
Beside these, I also email to the company that have deducted my money. Now I will see how thing goes...hope that I can get back the money.
Haiz...
Monday, August 20, 2007
Insomia
Okay...I'm now still full of energy...HELP ME!
Its been a week liao ever since I came back from my sailing. I need to have enough sleep but now I cannot sleep. Everyday I try to force myself to sleep but eventually I will still wake up in an hour time.
Now I just have to wait till 5am so that i can catch some rest...or should be say taking a power nap?
Urgh...
Its been a week liao ever since I came back from my sailing. I need to have enough sleep but now I cannot sleep. Everyday I try to force myself to sleep but eventually I will still wake up in an hour time.
Now I just have to wait till 5am so that i can catch some rest...or should be say taking a power nap?
Urgh...
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Celebrations of Singapore (Photos)
Yup...Time for me to upload the photos that I have took during the NDP at Marina
4 of Us
Me, Fabian, Jolene and Eugene
Look at out cute cute hats sponser by OSIM
The Red Lions...
This little girl so cute...
Time for KaBoom
Singing National Anthem
Me...just waving my flag
President Inspection
Look at ther bridge...
Wow...Thats a huge wind spash...
Performance started liao
Gay partner
Fireworks
Group photo after the parade
HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
SINGAPORE!!!
cheeky me...whahaha
Me, Fabian, Jolene and Eugene
Yellow Card
Well...kinda sad for the past few days coz I just awarded a yellow card. Because on Mon, my ship have a R3 inspection and just once we slip off. I dunno why just off form of my usual self on that day. My sighting of contacts around the vincity kinda part and pieces. Informations are just jumper around.
Somehow I think I was too focus not to do wrong but in the end, I still make this major mistake and especially during this major inspection.
May be I was too tense up as there are so many high ranking officers looking at us and the fear just got over me...
Anyway a lesson learn. I should relax myself and don't be too tense and focus on the things I need to do, not on the people.
After the incident, I pray and the following day, I'm back to usual self and everything got back to normal but my XO commented how come I was off form. I didn't say much just maybe the anxiety just got over me.
Well, during my quiet time somehow remember Jane give me the book for my brithday gift. I open my bible and read Matthew 14:27~33. It is just as I'm facing...
Somehow I have the courage to get out of my comfort zone but i didn't focus it that cause me to sink. The faith that I have is so little. But after this lesson learn, I have some revelation as sometimes we are too satisfied on our level and we dun really want to step out of our confort zone. As time goes by, we dunno how strong is our faith. Thats why we need to get out of our comfort zone and walk on the water. Even if we didn't make it much, it is a test for our faith.
On this incident, I took my courage to accept the failure. And learn that even failure it will still increase my faith as I will always remember and won't commit the same mistake and next time i will perform better and great.
Thank you. Jesus for the words you have answer to me.
Somehow I think I was too focus not to do wrong but in the end, I still make this major mistake and especially during this major inspection.
May be I was too tense up as there are so many high ranking officers looking at us and the fear just got over me...
Anyway a lesson learn. I should relax myself and don't be too tense and focus on the things I need to do, not on the people.
After the incident, I pray and the following day, I'm back to usual self and everything got back to normal but my XO commented how come I was off form. I didn't say much just maybe the anxiety just got over me.
Well, during my quiet time somehow remember Jane give me the book for my brithday gift. I open my bible and read Matthew 14:27~33. It is just as I'm facing...
Somehow I have the courage to get out of my comfort zone but i didn't focus it that cause me to sink. The faith that I have is so little. But after this lesson learn, I have some revelation as sometimes we are too satisfied on our level and we dun really want to step out of our confort zone. As time goes by, we dunno how strong is our faith. Thats why we need to get out of our comfort zone and walk on the water. Even if we didn't make it much, it is a test for our faith.
On this incident, I took my courage to accept the failure. And learn that even failure it will still increase my faith as I will always remember and won't commit the same mistake and next time i will perform better and great.
Thank you. Jesus for the words you have answer to me.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Happy Birthday Singapore!
Well...This year is Singapore 42th Birthday and it is thwe first time we are holding at Marina. With a floating platform.
Kinda interesting. So as the mention before that I have tickets and need to find people to go with me. Keep think of people to accompany and yup...found my god-sister Jolene. Together with Eugene and Fabian. However Jolene also have 2 tickets and she give it to her sister and her friend couldn't remember her name.. :P
Anyway this is my first time been a spectator to watch the performance. Quite a good experience and hopefully can still watch in the near future.
Well...currently still in processing the photo that took on the site and too many need to finalise before posting into the blog.
So stay tune for the nice nice photos.
Kinda interesting. So as the mention before that I have tickets and need to find people to go with me. Keep think of people to accompany and yup...found my god-sister Jolene. Together with Eugene and Fabian. However Jolene also have 2 tickets and she give it to her sister and her friend couldn't remember her name.. :P
Anyway this is my first time been a spectator to watch the performance. Quite a good experience and hopefully can still watch in the near future.
Well...currently still in processing the photo that took on the site and too many need to finalise before posting into the blog.
So stay tune for the nice nice photos.
Suay?
Today kinda suay or so call unforunate? Haha...Well, suppose meet up Fiona and Robin for dinner at 7.30pm but reach at Marina Square around 6pm so brought a cup of Starbucks Latte and sat there stone for 1 1/2hr look at people walk here walk there.
So waited for them and we have dinner. A full one. Thanks Robin and Fiona for the birthday gift. Really thanks, will treasure it. Hee hee...
Anyway...we decide to go to SAFRA Mount faber to have a few games of bowling. However, on our way to taxi stand, we hear someone calling 'FIONA'. Wooho...its Jialing and Sze yong. They are catching a movie and we headed down to Mount Faber SAFRA.
Once reach, we were thinking of playing Mahjong so we decided to go to Fio hse to play Majong and we waited so long and there are no taxi sia. So we walk to the bus-stop and dunno why we board a bus and Robin ask the driver whether it headed down to Tiong Bahru. but the driver so opposite and chase us down...Suay sia...
Anyway we boarded 195 and headed doen to Bukit Merah Market and brought some food and again the curse still with us...No Taxi...Suay? So we walk towards to the MRT station where there is a taxi bay. Waited so long and finally we got out taxi, thank God we had this cab coz the a couple wanted to snatch our cab sia...and we hinted them is our hired one they should que.
Well, reach fio hse, we play mahjong together with Fio's mum and guess wat, all of us lost except fio's mum won. Suay!!! Whahaha...anyway played the whole night still later got to go for NDP to watch...no worry how to find people to go with me...
So waited for them and we have dinner. A full one. Thanks Robin and Fiona for the birthday gift. Really thanks, will treasure it. Hee hee...
Anyway...we decide to go to SAFRA Mount faber to have a few games of bowling. However, on our way to taxi stand, we hear someone calling 'FIONA'. Wooho...its Jialing and Sze yong. They are catching a movie and we headed down to Mount Faber SAFRA.
Once reach, we were thinking of playing Mahjong so we decided to go to Fio hse to play Majong and we waited so long and there are no taxi sia. So we walk to the bus-stop and dunno why we board a bus and Robin ask the driver whether it headed down to Tiong Bahru. but the driver so opposite and chase us down...Suay sia...
Anyway we boarded 195 and headed doen to Bukit Merah Market and brought some food and again the curse still with us...No Taxi...Suay? So we walk towards to the MRT station where there is a taxi bay. Waited so long and finally we got out taxi, thank God we had this cab coz the a couple wanted to snatch our cab sia...and we hinted them is our hired one they should que.
Well, reach fio hse, we play mahjong together with Fio's mum and guess wat, all of us lost except fio's mum won. Suay!!! Whahaha...anyway played the whole night still later got to go for NDP to watch...no worry how to find people to go with me...
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Ten Dollar KTV
Wow...10 dollar KTV? Unbelieveable? Hahaha...yup, thats right! Yesterday, was been invited by Japheth. Went to Chinatown where the KTV is located.
We spent like 40 plus for just 3 person. Everyone have a bowl of sharkfin soup and a drink...whahaha
Although the place was quite small, but it is a time to relax and have fun singing.
O.S I'm terrible in singing...whahaha
We spent like 40 plus for just 3 person. Everyone have a bowl of sharkfin soup and a drink...whahaha
Although the place was quite small, but it is a time to relax and have fun singing.
O.S I'm terrible in singing...whahaha
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday to ME! Yup...old again another year liao. That means wiser abit more. whahaha :P
Well, today really appreciate all the things and programme that my dearest W356 cell group members had planned for me. I know that they are celebrating my birthday but details I'm not so sure until the very last min.
After the FOP service, we went to the Cosy Bay as we are very near the location. To my surprise, William, Irene, Faith, Bernice, Kystal, Jailing and Szeyong were there already chopping the seats. Hahaha! Thanks for getting us the seats!:)
We had our dinner, I suppose consider supper...whahaha...well, to my surprise when the time came to 12 mid-night the waiter came with a chocolate mousse cake. Really HAPPY! :)
O.S - first time celebrating my birthday on the dot.
Lets see what are the following gifts that make me laugh.
A chef hat birthday card from W356
Children Cookery Cards - For the kids dessert :P
356 days a dish?
Look at the yellow tags...its all my dearest members birthdates
This is my dish which falls on my birthdate...Hehehe
Another 2 more cook books
Everybody is waiting for Tiramisu
For that, due to everyone wants to eat tiramisu. So they even brought the essentials items for me to make...
A packet of Hershey's semi-sweet chocolate chips from Sharon
Lady finger biscuits and mascarpone from Mich and Jason
Hershey's Cocoa Powder from Pris
Very important ingredient for Tiramisu - RUM
A magnetic timer from Cherrie (O.S - Do I require for this?)
Containers from Fiona
Apron from William and Irene (O.S - Isn't it so cute...whahaha)
Adidas T-shirt from Szeyong and Jialing (O.S - After all the mess, a new clothes to wear)
Something for my spiritual growth from Jane
Thanks for all my dear friends, I will be making it soon so just sit back and wait to be my guinea pig. Whahaha. Finally, thanks everyone for making today a special one.
Oh not to forget just recieve a birthday card from the Church. So nice...
Lastly, thank you God the things you have given to me. Will keep on praying for my dream to be a chef in the near future. Maximise my potential that you have given to me. Help me to explore my areas to fulfill your mandate. Thank you God. In the name of Jesus. Amen!
Well, today really appreciate all the things and programme that my dearest W356 cell group members had planned for me. I know that they are celebrating my birthday but details I'm not so sure until the very last min.
After the FOP service, we went to the Cosy Bay as we are very near the location. To my surprise, William, Irene, Faith, Bernice, Kystal, Jailing and Szeyong were there already chopping the seats. Hahaha! Thanks for getting us the seats!:)
We had our dinner, I suppose consider supper...whahaha...well, to my surprise when the time came to 12 mid-night the waiter came with a chocolate mousse cake. Really HAPPY! :)
O.S - first time celebrating my birthday on the dot.
Lets see what are the following gifts that make me laugh.
For that, due to everyone wants to eat tiramisu. So they even brought the essentials items for me to make...
Thanks for all my dear friends, I will be making it soon so just sit back and wait to be my guinea pig. Whahaha. Finally, thanks everyone for making today a special one.
Oh not to forget just recieve a birthday card from the Church. So nice...
Lastly, thank you God the things you have given to me. Will keep on praying for my dream to be a chef in the near future. Maximise my potential that you have given to me. Help me to explore my areas to fulfill your mandate. Thank you God. In the name of Jesus. Amen!
Monday, July 30, 2007
Make A Difference
Something to share...
http://www.makeadifferencemovie.com/
Something that can impact yourself and others
http://www.makeadifferencemovie.com/
Something that can impact yourself and others
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Promotion
Oops forgot to something important. I just got promoted and was been back dated to 1st of May 2007. Yeah! something to celebrate. Guess that most of you guys n gals to ask me out to treat dinner or lunch liao...
Well, I am prepare for that...hee hee...
Well, I am prepare for that...hee hee...
Deliverance Ministry
Its been a long time that I really have such a wonderful encounter with God. Attended yesterday service that Pastor Mike Conell came to deliever us inner healing and invite the Holy Spirit to cleanse our mind and body.
During the special ministry, I went for the 3rd alter call. This alter call was "FEAR". Been a low self-estem person. I tend to have fear in my life and I fear mostly 356 times and it can consider to be everyday in fear. I fear in everything...rejection, failure, myself and etc.
Once I hear that alter call, I quickly went up to the front for deliverance and felt so strange at first as this is my first time getting deliverance. I felt a strong resistance at first but somehow when the ministry worker lay hands on me. I felt the presence of God came and cast out the spirit of fear from me. I cough out alot of saliva and almost vomit but with the strong faith that I started fasting since thu I have nothing to vomit. Feel refresh after the deliverance and things started to came into my vision when I pray at night.
Somehow the names of my ships which I have been onboard for the pass few years that I have work came into my mind.
RSS Freedom Year 2003 - 2004
RSS Sovereignty Year 2004 - 2006
RSS Steadfast Year 2007 - currently
After alot of pondering, I look in to the dictionary and answers came in.
Freedom
Definition: exemption from the presence of anything specified, independence
Synonyms: Sovereignty
Sovereignty
Definition: the status, dominion, power, or authority of a sovereign; royalty
Synonyms: leadership, management, power, freedom
Steadfast
Defination: firm in purpose, resolution, faith, attachment, etc.
Synonyms: Faithful
I never thought of the names until i look thru the dictionary and everything God speaks thru it. I was set free from my sins and salvation been given to me. God have empower me to fight the devil with him together. With that, I need to build up my faith and stay firmly loyal or constant.
It seems that God really speaks to me under some cicumstances and how I choose to respond back. Which I am very glad and greatful for at the things He have done in my life. I will continue to walk with faith.
Amen...
P.S Thank you Jesus!
During the special ministry, I went for the 3rd alter call. This alter call was "FEAR". Been a low self-estem person. I tend to have fear in my life and I fear mostly 356 times and it can consider to be everyday in fear. I fear in everything...rejection, failure, myself and etc.
Once I hear that alter call, I quickly went up to the front for deliverance and felt so strange at first as this is my first time getting deliverance. I felt a strong resistance at first but somehow when the ministry worker lay hands on me. I felt the presence of God came and cast out the spirit of fear from me. I cough out alot of saliva and almost vomit but with the strong faith that I started fasting since thu I have nothing to vomit. Feel refresh after the deliverance and things started to came into my vision when I pray at night.
Somehow the names of my ships which I have been onboard for the pass few years that I have work came into my mind.
RSS Freedom Year 2003 - 2004
RSS Sovereignty Year 2004 - 2006
RSS Steadfast Year 2007 - currently
After alot of pondering, I look in to the dictionary and answers came in.
Freedom
Definition: exemption from the presence of anything specified, independence
Synonyms: Sovereignty
Sovereignty
Definition: the status, dominion, power, or authority of a sovereign; royalty
Synonyms: leadership, management, power, freedom
Steadfast
Defination: firm in purpose, resolution, faith, attachment, etc.
Synonyms: Faithful
I never thought of the names until i look thru the dictionary and everything God speaks thru it. I was set free from my sins and salvation been given to me. God have empower me to fight the devil with him together. With that, I need to build up my faith and stay firmly loyal or constant.
It seems that God really speaks to me under some cicumstances and how I choose to respond back. Which I am very glad and greatful for at the things He have done in my life. I will continue to walk with faith.
Amen...
P.S Thank you Jesus!
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Long-time Friendship
Its been quite a long time, I didnt meet up this old friend of mine. Qiang Ren - Japheth. Known him since primary school, its about 19 years going 2 decades liao. Thats long...
Today make effort to hope down his house to play mahjong...whahaha...but no $$ involved. Guess that I'm the winner. Heehee...Won more than 500 :P. We have a great fun chit-chatting and gossiping about the old school days. We even look back the annual year book. Everyone look so nerd and now alot of them got married and looks changes. Wonder if their character changes?
Anyway, he is still my only contactable primary school friend now. I think so...coz alot of them lost contact since everyone move on to secondary school. Thinking is there any chance to contact the rest?
Well...friends are easy make but friendship is very difficult to maintian, it takes time and effort to maintian. Thats what i still lacking of. So need to fine somemore time to catch up with old and new friends....
Today make effort to hope down his house to play mahjong...whahaha...but no $$ involved. Guess that I'm the winner. Heehee...Won more than 500 :P. We have a great fun chit-chatting and gossiping about the old school days. We even look back the annual year book. Everyone look so nerd and now alot of them got married and looks changes. Wonder if their character changes?
Anyway, he is still my only contactable primary school friend now. I think so...coz alot of them lost contact since everyone move on to secondary school. Thinking is there any chance to contact the rest?
Well...friends are easy make but friendship is very difficult to maintian, it takes time and effort to maintian. Thats what i still lacking of. So need to fine somemore time to catch up with old and new friends....
Friday, July 20, 2007
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Visual DNA
MOODS: SOFISTICAT
You're romantic in your outlook and love a good fairytale. You are a bit of a dreamer, you've got a great imagination. When it comes to art, you appriciate raw and edgy stuff - you like to be challenged. You are definitely open-minded and you favour direct communication. As for music, it's the soundtrack to your world. It gives you focus, and concerntration - you might find it hard to switch off. Your choice of treat shows you love being a little bit naughty. Being good all the time is a bore. You've got a sense of fun and maybe an infectious giggle.
They like to live the high life; mixing in the right circles; always look for their best; they like to impress and make an impact.
FUN: WORKER BEE
Life is exhausting and you never seem to get enough rest - poor thing! Working hard or playing hard, you just have to get some more rest... For kicks, you like to experience life at full volume with the lights on full. You're extremely passionate and emotional, and a bit of exhibitionist? You express yourself and don't mind who's watching. When it comes to holiday, you like to explore and immerse yourself in another culture. Always on the go, you take in as much as you can. You find it hard to switch off, as you like to learn all the time. What grosses you out? You favour natural look and can't stand a pumped and plumped, plastic apperance.
Their ambition drives them through life - work is their No. 1 priority. They are diligent and committed.
HABITS: BACK TO BASICS
Living in a material world. you are always flashing the plastic. You like to live for and not get caught up thinking about tomorrow - hey, that would slow your shopping down. Your choice of drink reflects your love of the stabilitly and comfort of routine. As for the home, you are traditional: you invest in quality and history. You like your home to be as stylish as you are.
They are striving for a simpler life, they do without disposable trends - they are inspired by nature and longevity.
LOVE: LOVE BUG
You're a real romantic and a bit of dreamer. OK, life may not be a movie, but what's wrong with thinking it is? When you think of freedom - you think of being in charge of your direction. To open road and a full tank can take you pretty much anywhere.
They are the type to fall in love a thousand times a day. Their feeling snowball quickly, and they are full of passion.
Early Release?
Well...been having this thought of early release from the force and now exactly it 2 more years to countdown for release.
Been thinking alot...will I be able to use to the outside world environment? Am I able to sustain with the pay cut? Alot of questions been popping out of my mind...but i been praying that God will show me the way. I believe in him that HE will create the best time for my career. If i have to leave the force, mostly I will been going to study and it would be cooking...
Hoping one day I will be a well-known chef in global. Still waiting for my prayer to be answered
Been thinking alot...will I be able to use to the outside world environment? Am I able to sustain with the pay cut? Alot of questions been popping out of my mind...but i been praying that God will show me the way. I believe in him that HE will create the best time for my career. If i have to leave the force, mostly I will been going to study and it would be cooking...
Hoping one day I will be a well-known chef in global. Still waiting for my prayer to be answered
Cell Group Multiply
Yup...Once again my cell group multiply liao... Its been almost ayear liao and we again multiply. Old cell grp friends left and join other cell grp and newer ones came in...too bad this coming cell grp I still unable to attend it becoz got sailing...haiz!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
30Hr Famine Camp
Yup...I've make it again. Well, due to my work so now I can blog it.
This year again, I join the 30Hr Famine camp again as a facilitator. Hee hee...This year quite different coz I won't be in a double role. Last year I need to help out the campees to play the simulation game and also as a facilitator. But this year I quite relax...hee hee coz got others faci to help out.
Anyway this year simulation game quite different from last year as it is based on 8 different developing countries as all facilitators are becoming UN Envoys and depends on the size of the countries, allocated different number of UN Envoys. Like mine..my country that deploy is Zambia. There are some countries like Lesotho, Cambodia, Mongolia, Uzbekistan, Myanmar, Ethiopia and Bangladesh. Well, as for Zambia, there are should be 95 campees but it turn out to be 79 campees...but anyway less people more easy to manage...kekeke...but this still turn out ot be quite disorganise. So I have to keep shouting here and there to give instruction...No choice, military train so happen to use this method. :P
Well, the first day was basically more on the role play simulation game as every country they need to chose their own president and other 4 leaders are (education, Manpower, Food and water, Health). The nation have to achieve 100% edcation for all children and 80% for nation (Zambia happen to be most well educated :P). Ensure each person have 25L of water and 2.5kg of food ( Err...too bad everyone are out for money so they didn't get much food so...only can support 2 people...hee hee). Achieve 100% vaccination for the nation ( I think the hospital too long q liao so alot of campees kena cheated to do healthly lifestyle...so that means we didn't achieve much). But the nation treasury was a huge increase coz beginnign was only $202 but in the end...the nation came in a income of $1000 surplus. I guess that alot of them when for illegal jobs like sell organ, drug trafficking and prostitution.
Too bad due to the time allocated, the organisers felt that they campers are having so much fun on the game so they cancel the last stage of the game where there should be war and the nation have to go thru the tough times. Anyway, we have workshops on poverty and Aids. Most of all, have an oppuninity to invite a young boy from cambodia to speak to us how he have gone thru. Kinda sad listening to his story.
However, at the end of the day. We make it so special that everyone have a tealight to light up and as facilitator, we started to blow off which represent the life and death. And came out to debrief the whole day event and asking each individual one about their feeling and comments.
On the 2nd day which still have 10hrs to breakfast...we went to Tampines West to collect old newspapers and clothings as a fund raising. Leading a team of 26 campers which is twice the size i took last year and require to cover 14 blocks of HDB. I beginning was so enthu...but old liao...cannot run...so start deploy people to collect...heehee. However, we finish quite fast under my in charge, and the lorry was pack with stuffs...
After the collection, i purpose bring the campers to the nearby coffeeshop where to temp them...especially the carrot cake aroma was so strong that everyone was grumpling about it...I so mean...kekeke
Anyway...back to Republic poly, as the first team to return back so we help out to clean up out home base and relax and wait for other teams to return. well, after concert we countdown, everyone so excited! Then we count down 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0! Wa we screamed like siao! haha! 30hrs of hunger ended...everyone rush out for food. As usual BurgerKing sponser the meal...whahaha
It was a great fun and tiring experience and hoping next year I can really make it coz next year I dunno whether I'm still in Hawaii for overseas depolyment yet or not.
That is my team member facilitators - Ziling, Ryan and Chiew Lin
That is Zambia citizens
After newspapers collection, everyone is tired...time to Zzzzz
Yeah...Finally 30Hr of hunger
This year again, I join the 30Hr Famine camp again as a facilitator. Hee hee...This year quite different coz I won't be in a double role. Last year I need to help out the campees to play the simulation game and also as a facilitator. But this year I quite relax...hee hee coz got others faci to help out.
Anyway this year simulation game quite different from last year as it is based on 8 different developing countries as all facilitators are becoming UN Envoys and depends on the size of the countries, allocated different number of UN Envoys. Like mine..my country that deploy is Zambia. There are some countries like Lesotho, Cambodia, Mongolia, Uzbekistan, Myanmar, Ethiopia and Bangladesh. Well, as for Zambia, there are should be 95 campees but it turn out to be 79 campees...but anyway less people more easy to manage...kekeke...but this still turn out ot be quite disorganise. So I have to keep shouting here and there to give instruction...No choice, military train so happen to use this method. :P
Well, the first day was basically more on the role play simulation game as every country they need to chose their own president and other 4 leaders are (education, Manpower, Food and water, Health). The nation have to achieve 100% edcation for all children and 80% for nation (Zambia happen to be most well educated :P). Ensure each person have 25L of water and 2.5kg of food ( Err...too bad everyone are out for money so they didn't get much food so...only can support 2 people...hee hee). Achieve 100% vaccination for the nation ( I think the hospital too long q liao so alot of campees kena cheated to do healthly lifestyle...so that means we didn't achieve much). But the nation treasury was a huge increase coz beginnign was only $202 but in the end...the nation came in a income of $1000 surplus. I guess that alot of them when for illegal jobs like sell organ, drug trafficking and prostitution.
Too bad due to the time allocated, the organisers felt that they campers are having so much fun on the game so they cancel the last stage of the game where there should be war and the nation have to go thru the tough times. Anyway, we have workshops on poverty and Aids. Most of all, have an oppuninity to invite a young boy from cambodia to speak to us how he have gone thru. Kinda sad listening to his story.
However, at the end of the day. We make it so special that everyone have a tealight to light up and as facilitator, we started to blow off which represent the life and death. And came out to debrief the whole day event and asking each individual one about their feeling and comments.
On the 2nd day which still have 10hrs to breakfast...we went to Tampines West to collect old newspapers and clothings as a fund raising. Leading a team of 26 campers which is twice the size i took last year and require to cover 14 blocks of HDB. I beginning was so enthu...but old liao...cannot run...so start deploy people to collect...heehee. However, we finish quite fast under my in charge, and the lorry was pack with stuffs...
After the collection, i purpose bring the campers to the nearby coffeeshop where to temp them...especially the carrot cake aroma was so strong that everyone was grumpling about it...I so mean...kekeke
Anyway...back to Republic poly, as the first team to return back so we help out to clean up out home base and relax and wait for other teams to return. well, after concert we countdown, everyone so excited! Then we count down 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0! Wa we screamed like siao! haha! 30hrs of hunger ended...everyone rush out for food. As usual BurgerKing sponser the meal...whahaha
It was a great fun and tiring experience and hoping next year I can really make it coz next year I dunno whether I'm still in Hawaii for overseas depolyment yet or not.
That is my team member facilitators - Ziling, Ryan and Chiew Lin
That is Zambia citizens
After newspapers collection, everyone is tired...time to Zzzzz
Yeah...Finally 30Hr of hunger
Thursday, June 14, 2007
NDP tickets
Yeah!!! On monday evening, happen to recieve a call that I got myself balloted for the NDP tickets. So happy for that coz after 2 years of ballot and fail, this year I got it. Thank God! Just too bad is that I only got 4 tickets of actual day. Now started to think who should I invite to go see the show.
Well, this year die die must go coz it is the first time NDP at a floating platform...seats are quite limited...
Well, this year die die must go coz it is the first time NDP at a floating platform...seats are quite limited...
Monday, June 04, 2007
Emerge Grand Finale
Today we have 2 sessions of service on Evanglism as the drama team have put up a musical play for us. "PVC rocks" it is a musical combine like the FAME and the High School
Sometimes we really wish to be somebody that are very famous and popular. But what really makes me feel about it is the passion and the way how we persistance when we meet obstacles.
The musical drama play also very funny and touching...too bad i didn't get to record it. Maybe should wait till the DVD is out then i put it on the webby...hehehe
After that we also have our Emerge 2007 Grand Finale. Guess what the south cluster and the JC/CI cluster again won the overall champions and it is their 3th winning in a row. Wow...wonder next year will they continue to hold on their trophy for the 4th year?
Anyway today preaching was really awesome...it really flows and brings us to another level of calling and we hold the trumpet and we will be like Moses, Joshua, Samuel, David, Joel, Jesus, Peter Simon, Paul, John and may more that hold the Trumpet and bring the light to the world.
I also see my vision as God is calling me to work hard on my personal development and strive through these few years as there will be testing.
Hope that one day, I will walk together with God and serve him as he call me to do on his will.
Sometimes we really wish to be somebody that are very famous and popular. But what really makes me feel about it is the passion and the way how we persistance when we meet obstacles.
The musical drama play also very funny and touching...too bad i didn't get to record it. Maybe should wait till the DVD is out then i put it on the webby...hehehe
After that we also have our Emerge 2007 Grand Finale. Guess what the south cluster and the JC/CI cluster again won the overall champions and it is their 3th winning in a row. Wow...wonder next year will they continue to hold on their trophy for the 4th year?
Anyway today preaching was really awesome...it really flows and brings us to another level of calling and we hold the trumpet and we will be like Moses, Joshua, Samuel, David, Joel, Jesus, Peter Simon, Paul, John and may more that hold the Trumpet and bring the light to the world.
I also see my vision as God is calling me to work hard on my personal development and strive through these few years as there will be testing.
Hope that one day, I will walk together with God and serve him as he call me to do on his will.
Emerge 2007 cont. cont.
Haha...yup today is the 3rd day of Emerge 2007. Basically we only have 1 session for the evening.
It was very touching coz the whole convection hall is fill with love as Liu Geng Hong proposal to his girlfriend right in the church. Wow! so romantic...we also celebrate Sun's birthday and really Pastor Kong have to change the preach due to the flow of words and anointing.
Really feel it all about the Love...
It was very touching coz the whole convection hall is fill with love as Liu Geng Hong proposal to his girlfriend right in the church. Wow! so romantic...we also celebrate Sun's birthday and really Pastor Kong have to change the preach due to the flow of words and anointing.
Really feel it all about the Love...
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Emerge 2007 Cont.
Day 2 for the Emerge 2007 and due to yesterday night we are greatful that we are telecast onto the God TV as millions of people were watching us. Although it is a very long service but feel that the presence of God is here.
Anyway, due to today need to work so I unable to attend the morning session so kinda miss abit. Bur anyway tonight session brings me a level up. The presence of God was really there and now I'm really on fire.
For tonight, we have guest performance from the project superstar winner and 1st runner, Darren and Diya. Well, wonder tomorrow night guest performance is who? liu Geng Hong?
Anyway, after the service, went for fellowship and Cherrie makes me reminds of someone whom really scare of cats. Wonder whether is she still fine over there. Coz lately she didn't have much sleep and was rushing for her assignments.
Another month she will be back. Still will be waiting for her.
Anyway, due to today need to work so I unable to attend the morning session so kinda miss abit. Bur anyway tonight session brings me a level up. The presence of God was really there and now I'm really on fire.
For tonight, we have guest performance from the project superstar winner and 1st runner, Darren and Diya. Well, wonder tomorrow night guest performance is who? liu Geng Hong?
Anyway, after the service, went for fellowship and Cherrie makes me reminds of someone whom really scare of cats. Wonder whether is she still fine over there. Coz lately she didn't have much sleep and was rushing for her assignments.
Another month she will be back. Still will be waiting for her.
Emerge 2007
Yup...Its Emerge! Its the annual youth conference for them. This year we have more competitions added on to it. More performances and more activities.
Well, this year is my very first time to attend the opening as last year due to work I only can attend the grand finale for the Emerge.
Today 31st of May 2007 is the first day of Emerge 2007 and there are 2 sessions for the whole day. We have great fun and most of all, able to hear whats God is calling us.
For the evening session, we have guest performance by TANK, a taiwaness singer. Moreover, we have the parade of school whereby the youths are classified into their respective clusters and perform cheer-leading. Wow...although they are not professional cheer leaders but they are able to do stunts that we can't imagine.
Guess what, to my shock. Liu Geng Hong was here to attend the Emerge and he sat just infront of me. Just 15cm distance away...a close look at him sia. He is really on fire for God. Praise the Lord!
Well, there are still more events to come for the next few days.
Well, this year is my very first time to attend the opening as last year due to work I only can attend the grand finale for the Emerge.
Today 31st of May 2007 is the first day of Emerge 2007 and there are 2 sessions for the whole day. We have great fun and most of all, able to hear whats God is calling us.
For the evening session, we have guest performance by TANK, a taiwaness singer. Moreover, we have the parade of school whereby the youths are classified into their respective clusters and perform cheer-leading. Wow...although they are not professional cheer leaders but they are able to do stunts that we can't imagine.
Guess what, to my shock. Liu Geng Hong was here to attend the Emerge and he sat just infront of me. Just 15cm distance away...a close look at him sia. He is really on fire for God. Praise the Lord!
Well, there are still more events to come for the next few days.
Friday, June 01, 2007
Navy Open House 2007
Whoo...forgot to update this due to busy schedule for the whole week. Anyway its another Navy Open house in my navy career. However, this time, I'm more forunate that I won't have to do any duty for the Open house.
So took this oppununity for bringing my mother to visit my base and enable her to know what Navy is all about.
The Navy Open House 2007 was held on 26th and 27th May at Changi Navy Base:
So took this oppununity for bringing my mother to visit my base and enable her to know what Navy is all about.
The Navy Open House 2007 was held on 26th and 27th May at Changi Navy Base:
Friday, May 18, 2007
I'm Back On Board Ship
It seems so fast that my good life in the training school have ended. As on Mon, 14th May, I was posted back to my ship and felt so different as there are so many different faces that I need to remember and got to know them.
Feel that I'm all alone again. I need to adjust myself to suit this environment. I also need to know the whole ship structure so that I won't be lost in ship as the ship are consider quite big.
Anyway, Ithe following day I was required to sail and it was a 3 days 2 nights sailing. Due to my system not up yet, and also limited crews onboard so I have to trot in to help out the watch in the cruising time. Moverover, I need to close up as bridge lookout as I hate the most coz need to keep updating the contacts that will feel u dun really like it. Sometimes also will bored coz there arent any contacts to report.
Most of all, I was still not use to the culture of the ship as most of the people quite extrovert and they are performing so good...I think I cannot lazy ans slack. Wish I can go back to my old ship and slack...haha...anyway, maybe it is a good time to train up myself to be more discipline as what I lack most.
Anyway, just back from sailing and learn alot of new things. Think that more suffering to come and I need really set a good mindset to accept new challanges.
P.S May God will always bless me throughout my tour onbaord this ship and hope that I can bear furits within.
Feel that I'm all alone again. I need to adjust myself to suit this environment. I also need to know the whole ship structure so that I won't be lost in ship as the ship are consider quite big.
Anyway, Ithe following day I was required to sail and it was a 3 days 2 nights sailing. Due to my system not up yet, and also limited crews onboard so I have to trot in to help out the watch in the cruising time. Moverover, I need to close up as bridge lookout as I hate the most coz need to keep updating the contacts that will feel u dun really like it. Sometimes also will bored coz there arent any contacts to report.
Most of all, I was still not use to the culture of the ship as most of the people quite extrovert and they are performing so good...I think I cannot lazy ans slack. Wish I can go back to my old ship and slack...haha...anyway, maybe it is a good time to train up myself to be more discipline as what I lack most.
Anyway, just back from sailing and learn alot of new things. Think that more suffering to come and I need really set a good mindset to accept new challanges.
P.S May God will always bless me throughout my tour onbaord this ship and hope that I can bear furits within.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Boring
Okie...its been almost 5 days since I'm on leave and everyday staying at home watching TV, drama series, eating and sleeping...feel like a pig sia oin oink! (*oo*)
Hoping someone can entertain me...luckily tml got cell group meeting or not i'm going to have spider wed all around me liao...hee hee
Hoping someone can entertain me...luckily tml got cell group meeting or not i'm going to have spider wed all around me liao...hee hee
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
天使情人 Angel Lover
每个人都有自己的爱情梦想，只是在残酷的现实中难以实现；每个人都在自己的爱情中跌跌撞撞、遍体鳞伤。当我们在最伤心无助的时候，也许曾经希望能有一位天使陪我们疗伤，指引我们继续往下走的方向。
这是一个关于爱和勇气的故事。只要心中有爱，每个人都可以是别人的天使，只要懂得付出，懂得关怀，懂得尊重生命和爱……天使情人，是上天给我们最好的礼物。
=>
沒有愛 就沒有這個世界
只要心中有愛
每個人都是天使
只要懂得付出 懂得關懷
懂得尊重生命
天使
是上帝給我們最好的禮物
只要繼續相信
天使的愛 永遠也不會消失
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Prank
Happen to came across a few pranks that 2 local chinese guys purposely do it to make people angry sia...But really cannot tahan how they do it sia...
Do listen...
Kopitiam
RK House aka No Pork
Do listen...
Kopitiam
RK House aka No Pork
Friday, April 13, 2007
最近 - 李圣杰
你最近不说话
怎麽了 为什麽 是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌 可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎麽了 为什麽 是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌 可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次会有更好的情路
爱 我却不能给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释 这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛 苦下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福
怎麽了 为什麽 是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌 可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎麽了 为什麽 是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌 可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次会有更好的情路
爱 我却不能给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释 这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛 苦下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福
我可以 - 蔡昮佑
作词:林唯 蔡昮佑
作曲:蔡昮佑
编曲:洪信杰
演唱:蔡昮佑
寄 没有地址的信
这样的情绪 有种距离
你 放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下得好安静
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你的背景 有我爱你
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离我
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你
寄 没有地址的信
这样的情绪 有种距离
你 放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下得好安静
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你的背景 有我爱你
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离我
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离我
多么想每一次的美丽是因为你
作曲:蔡昮佑
编曲:洪信杰
演唱:蔡昮佑
寄 没有地址的信
这样的情绪 有种距离
你 放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下得好安静
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你的背景 有我爱你
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离我
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你
寄 没有地址的信
这样的情绪 有种距离
你 放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下得好安静
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你的背景 有我爱你
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离我
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离我
多么想每一次的美丽是因为你
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Memories
Well...last night went to Oasis Taiwan Porridage with 2 of my colleagues. We have lotsa things to chat and alot of memories just flash back.
We talk about our old days that how suffering we been thru. Especially when eating the porridage. It kinda sab but it really brings back the memories and how we eat the porridage like using the pork floss, fermented beancurd, cai xin and etc. To younger generation or those who born in a better family they won't have to worry about the meals. But to me, it is a memories that will remind me how poor in times we can suffer.
Anyway, it is good to eat with people whom appreciate the meal.
We talk about our old days that how suffering we been thru. Especially when eating the porridage. It kinda sab but it really brings back the memories and how we eat the porridage like using the pork floss, fermented beancurd, cai xin and etc. To younger generation or those who born in a better family they won't have to worry about the meals. But to me, it is a memories that will remind me how poor in times we can suffer.
Anyway, it is good to eat with people whom appreciate the meal.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Stress
The whole week i've been thru a very stress period. Why? Becoz one of my colleague gone AWOL ( absent without leave). In the military, it is very serious offence and this might have cause he to enter detention barrack.
At first, we have been searching for his news. We even went over his house to make an offical visit and I have to bare with soem emotions coz seeing his parents started to tear down. As an emotional person, I need to control.
For the next past few days, I tried to call his mobile phone but still unable to contact. Our worry is only whether is he still alright or have he been in some accident or not. But one of my colleague say that he will be okie as he know him so well that his inistinic say that he might be in the gambling ship. I also found out that he cheated me to transfer money to his account that he need to pay someone but will return to me on the following day but he didn't. I guess that he use my money to go to gambling ship to gamble. I dunno why he wanted to do that. This really make me sad but now all we need to wait for he to come back. So we waited and waited until thur, he finally call us that he will surrender himself on friday morning.
I felt a relieve at that moment, but now is the critical time as any people cma eto provoke him he might not come back so all we need is to pray that he come back.
Finally he came back and he was send for questioning and just before lunch time, i was called to the office and I was chosen to escort him for the next very hour. Whenever he goes, I was task to escort him.
I have to escort him to the commander office and it was so stiff and the environment was so quiet and he have to face the music and the punishment was to send him to detention barrack for 4 days starting on today (friday) so he will be release on monday. Thank God! I also didn't want to see that he got to harsh punishment. But i felt so sad that i need to handcuff him on the next very moment and have to send him to medicial centre for check up and then to the detention barrack.
On the way, we didn't chat much but I felt so sad that i dun even know wat to say. So all is that i told him we will wait for him and hope that this time he will do some reflection and most of all he can quit his gambling habit. Thats all I pray for.
Arrive at the detention barrack, I have to search his body again and ensure that he didn't have anything in his body and when i sign on the handling over form, emotion came and all i can do is to control it and make our final last word with him that we will see him on mon.
On the way back to camp, my mind is think what will happen on him and is it very tough inside? Questions keep popping out. But i guess that all the answers will got from him on mon ba.
Now I've to pray that he will be okay and may God bless him and make him do reflections for the next few days.
At first, we have been searching for his news. We even went over his house to make an offical visit and I have to bare with soem emotions coz seeing his parents started to tear down. As an emotional person, I need to control.
For the next past few days, I tried to call his mobile phone but still unable to contact. Our worry is only whether is he still alright or have he been in some accident or not. But one of my colleague say that he will be okie as he know him so well that his inistinic say that he might be in the gambling ship. I also found out that he cheated me to transfer money to his account that he need to pay someone but will return to me on the following day but he didn't. I guess that he use my money to go to gambling ship to gamble. I dunno why he wanted to do that. This really make me sad but now all we need to wait for he to come back. So we waited and waited until thur, he finally call us that he will surrender himself on friday morning.
I felt a relieve at that moment, but now is the critical time as any people cma eto provoke him he might not come back so all we need is to pray that he come back.
Finally he came back and he was send for questioning and just before lunch time, i was called to the office and I was chosen to escort him for the next very hour. Whenever he goes, I was task to escort him.
I have to escort him to the commander office and it was so stiff and the environment was so quiet and he have to face the music and the punishment was to send him to detention barrack for 4 days starting on today (friday) so he will be release on monday. Thank God! I also didn't want to see that he got to harsh punishment. But i felt so sad that i need to handcuff him on the next very moment and have to send him to medicial centre for check up and then to the detention barrack.
On the way, we didn't chat much but I felt so sad that i dun even know wat to say. So all is that i told him we will wait for him and hope that this time he will do some reflection and most of all he can quit his gambling habit. Thats all I pray for.
Arrive at the detention barrack, I have to search his body again and ensure that he didn't have anything in his body and when i sign on the handling over form, emotion came and all i can do is to control it and make our final last word with him that we will see him on mon.
On the way back to camp, my mind is think what will happen on him and is it very tough inside? Questions keep popping out. But i guess that all the answers will got from him on mon ba.
Now I've to pray that he will be okay and may God bless him and make him do reflections for the next few days.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Troubles...
There are alot of things happen around me and yet i didn't making any effort to find someone to told about it. I know that the more i keep it to myself, i will start worry more and evntually just cannot take it.
Why i prefer keeping to myself than finding someone that i will speak up. Coz in my life i didn't make effort finding friends or my family...i always just a wanderer, aloner. Maybe it is just an excuse for it but I just dun wan anyone to start worry about me...
Well, maybe i think too much or consider for others but thats my character. Lately, my life had been a mess.
I know helping my friend to settle his loan and now there is a slight problem occuring and I guess i have to ensure everythings to be settle ASAP.
Another thing is that I abit worry about my mother that she told me that she mostly won't be have the energy to continue to work and my brother also will be starting to commence his studies this coming april and things just came in wave...I dunno how long i can hold on... Mostly i just want to pray for the brightest thing or miriacle to happen.
However, another things that really worries my is that will i able to leave the force in 2009? Its been a question mark for me. I still haven save up the money for me to study and I'm just afraid will I able to survive for the time when i leave the force.
I really dunno...all I need is to have financial freedom and able for me to breakthrough to serve to Lord.
Pray very very hard and hope for the best and wish my dark sky will clear!
Why i prefer keeping to myself than finding someone that i will speak up. Coz in my life i didn't make effort finding friends or my family...i always just a wanderer, aloner. Maybe it is just an excuse for it but I just dun wan anyone to start worry about me...
Well, maybe i think too much or consider for others but thats my character. Lately, my life had been a mess.
I know helping my friend to settle his loan and now there is a slight problem occuring and I guess i have to ensure everythings to be settle ASAP.
Another thing is that I abit worry about my mother that she told me that she mostly won't be have the energy to continue to work and my brother also will be starting to commence his studies this coming april and things just came in wave...I dunno how long i can hold on... Mostly i just want to pray for the brightest thing or miriacle to happen.
However, another things that really worries my is that will i able to leave the force in 2009? Its been a question mark for me. I still haven save up the money for me to study and I'm just afraid will I able to survive for the time when i leave the force.
I really dunno...all I need is to have financial freedom and able for me to breakthrough to serve to Lord.
Pray very very hard and hope for the best and wish my dark sky will clear!
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Something to share
一個感人的愛情故事有一個年輕人喜歡上了在便利商店打工的女孩,他每天都會到女孩工作的店裡面買一包香煙,漸漸的兩人開始互相熟悉,當女孩工作感到無聊乏味的時候,年輕人就會出現,他會陪女孩說說話 ,或是逗女孩開心.
女孩也知道年輕人似乎喜歡上自己了,可是自己已經有很要好的男友.有商店夾公仔機...女孩很喜歡裡面的娃娃,年輕人知道以後,當天他終於對她表白,希望女孩能接受他,不知如何是好的女孩,只能殘忍的告訴年輕人,她和他是不可能的,因為她已經有深愛的男友了,年輕人聽了之後默然的點點頭,他不死心的問女孩,自己真的沒有機會了嗎?
善良的女孩不忍心....於是她手指著娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃說,除非你夾滿100個娃娃,而且一天只能夾一個.
原來女孩希望用時間來沖淡年輕人對自己的感情 ,她心想,一天夾1個娃娃, 最快也要三個多月之後才有100個,而且年輕人應該不會真的有耐心夾滿100個娃娃吧這三個月的時間,她會盡量與男孩保持距離,年輕人還是每天到商店來,可是女孩開始變得冷淡,他總是試著聊一些女孩有興趣的話題,不過女孩依然愛理不理.因為她知道唯有這樣做,才不會讓年輕人越陷越深.
年輕人或許是感覺到女孩的用意,於是他每天夾娃娃,有時運氣好夾一兩次就中了,有時運氣差,零用錢花光了也夾不到,只好跟朋友借錢繼續夾,一直到夾中為止.無論花多少錢花多少時間,他每天一定會夾一個娃娃,只是他無法與女孩分享夾到娃娃的喜悅,因為他知道女孩有意要避開他,為了怕引響到女孩的情緒,他只能在櫥窗外頭微笑的對女孩點點頭.好幾次,看到年輕人因為夾到娃娃興高采烈的樣子,女孩都想要衝出去對他說,我是騙你的,你不要再夾了,就算你真的夾到100個娃娃,我跟你也是不可能的!
但是一想到年輕人希望破滅的樣子,女孩就於心不忍,她只能不斷猶豫.就這樣1 天,2天,3天..,年輕人的娃娃數量不斷的累積,而女孩刻意與年輕人保持距離的結果,則是讓自己在工作的時後更顯孤單.
不知道是哪一天,女孩子因為在外地工作的男友無法回來陪她過18歲的生日,與男友吵了一架,而那天年輕人仍一如往常的來到便利商店,不同的是那天年輕人竟走進了店裡,他對女孩說,可不可以破例讓他在今天夾兩個娃娃回去,可是因為和男友吵架而心情不佳的女孩,很生氣的當場拒絕了他.
就這樣,年輕人走到娃娃機旁,默默的夾了一個娃娃回去,在年輕人離開的時後,他對櫥窗裡的女孩看了一眼.隔天以後,年輕人再也沒來夾娃娃了.
剛開始女孩雖然覺得奇怪,但是仍然慶幸自己終於放下了心中的大石頭.可是漸漸的,她突然覺得不習慣,因為那個每天都會為了她來夾娃娃的熟悉背影,好像空氣一樣就消失不見了,這時女孩才發現到,原來她心中的失落感遠遠超過年輕人所帶給她的負擔.只是一切都...女孩開始想念以前年輕人來店裡陪她聊天的點點滴滴.
哪怕他只是站在櫥窗外頭沉默不語的夾娃娃,似乎都會帶給她莫名的安全感.所以女孩每天上班時,總是不斷的抬頭張望,那個熟悉的身影來了嗎?
可惜的是,年輕人始終沒出現, 只剩下那台沒人使用的娃娃機.有一天,女孩下班後,在店門口遇到了以前常和年輕人一起來的朋友,她焦急的問他年輕人的下落,可是年輕人的朋友則是一臉黯然,他帶女孩來到年輕人的家,當他開啟年輕人的房間的門時,映入女孩眼簾的是 一群娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃,以及躺在床上動也不動的年輕人.
原來年輕人的脊椎有病,必須要開刀才能保住生命,可是開刀有一半的機率會失敗而導致全身癱瘓,年輕人在開刀的前一天晚上,也就是女孩和男友大吵一架的那天,希望女孩給他機會夾2個娃娃,因為他已經累積有98個了,然而卻遭到女孩的回絕,隔天之後年輕人手術不幸失敗變成植物人,年輕人的母親拿了一封信給女孩.
那是年輕人在手術之前寫好的:其實我早就知道,就算夾到了100個娃娃,妳也不可能會喜歡我,我之所以這麼做並不是故意要造成妳的困擾,而是希望在我有限的時間裡,證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人,這樣就足夠了,如果妳看到了這封信,那表示我再也無法為你夾娃娃了,對不起,或許我的努力還不夠吧,沒能夾到100個娃娃親手送給你..女孩看著床邊的99個絨毛娃娃,那是99顆無法承受的真心,眼眶裡的淚水早已決堤而出...
隔天女孩來到年輕人的家,她將第100個絨毛娃娃放到年輕人的手中,這時已經變成植物人的他,眼睛流下了淚水...
女孩也知道年輕人似乎喜歡上自己了,可是自己已經有很要好的男友.有商店夾公仔機...女孩很喜歡裡面的娃娃,年輕人知道以後,當天他終於對她表白,希望女孩能接受他,不知如何是好的女孩,只能殘忍的告訴年輕人,她和他是不可能的,因為她已經有深愛的男友了,年輕人聽了之後默然的點點頭,他不死心的問女孩,自己真的沒有機會了嗎?
善良的女孩不忍心....於是她手指著娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃說,除非你夾滿100個娃娃,而且一天只能夾一個.
原來女孩希望用時間來沖淡年輕人對自己的感情 ,她心想,一天夾1個娃娃, 最快也要三個多月之後才有100個,而且年輕人應該不會真的有耐心夾滿100個娃娃吧這三個月的時間,她會盡量與男孩保持距離,年輕人還是每天到商店來,可是女孩開始變得冷淡,他總是試著聊一些女孩有興趣的話題,不過女孩依然愛理不理.因為她知道唯有這樣做,才不會讓年輕人越陷越深.
年輕人或許是感覺到女孩的用意,於是他每天夾娃娃,有時運氣好夾一兩次就中了,有時運氣差,零用錢花光了也夾不到,只好跟朋友借錢繼續夾,一直到夾中為止.無論花多少錢花多少時間,他每天一定會夾一個娃娃,只是他無法與女孩分享夾到娃娃的喜悅,因為他知道女孩有意要避開他,為了怕引響到女孩的情緒,他只能在櫥窗外頭微笑的對女孩點點頭.好幾次,看到年輕人因為夾到娃娃興高采烈的樣子,女孩都想要衝出去對他說,我是騙你的,你不要再夾了,就算你真的夾到100個娃娃,我跟你也是不可能的!
但是一想到年輕人希望破滅的樣子,女孩就於心不忍,她只能不斷猶豫.就這樣1 天,2天,3天..,年輕人的娃娃數量不斷的累積,而女孩刻意與年輕人保持距離的結果,則是讓自己在工作的時後更顯孤單.
不知道是哪一天,女孩子因為在外地工作的男友無法回來陪她過18歲的生日,與男友吵了一架,而那天年輕人仍一如往常的來到便利商店,不同的是那天年輕人竟走進了店裡,他對女孩說,可不可以破例讓他在今天夾兩個娃娃回去,可是因為和男友吵架而心情不佳的女孩,很生氣的當場拒絕了他.
就這樣,年輕人走到娃娃機旁,默默的夾了一個娃娃回去,在年輕人離開的時後,他對櫥窗裡的女孩看了一眼.隔天以後,年輕人再也沒來夾娃娃了.
剛開始女孩雖然覺得奇怪,但是仍然慶幸自己終於放下了心中的大石頭.可是漸漸的,她突然覺得不習慣,因為那個每天都會為了她來夾娃娃的熟悉背影,好像空氣一樣就消失不見了,這時女孩才發現到,原來她心中的失落感遠遠超過年輕人所帶給她的負擔.只是一切都...女孩開始想念以前年輕人來店裡陪她聊天的點點滴滴.
哪怕他只是站在櫥窗外頭沉默不語的夾娃娃,似乎都會帶給她莫名的安全感.所以女孩每天上班時,總是不斷的抬頭張望,那個熟悉的身影來了嗎?
可惜的是,年輕人始終沒出現, 只剩下那台沒人使用的娃娃機.有一天,女孩下班後,在店門口遇到了以前常和年輕人一起來的朋友,她焦急的問他年輕人的下落,可是年輕人的朋友則是一臉黯然,他帶女孩來到年輕人的家,當他開啟年輕人的房間的門時,映入女孩眼簾的是 一群娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃,以及躺在床上動也不動的年輕人.
原來年輕人的脊椎有病,必須要開刀才能保住生命,可是開刀有一半的機率會失敗而導致全身癱瘓,年輕人在開刀的前一天晚上,也就是女孩和男友大吵一架的那天,希望女孩給他機會夾2個娃娃,因為他已經累積有98個了,然而卻遭到女孩的回絕,隔天之後年輕人手術不幸失敗變成植物人,年輕人的母親拿了一封信給女孩.
那是年輕人在手術之前寫好的:其實我早就知道,就算夾到了100個娃娃,妳也不可能會喜歡我,我之所以這麼做並不是故意要造成妳的困擾,而是希望在我有限的時間裡,證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人,這樣就足夠了,如果妳看到了這封信,那表示我再也無法為你夾娃娃了,對不起,或許我的努力還不夠吧,沒能夾到100個娃娃親手送給你..女孩看著床邊的99個絨毛娃娃,那是99顆無法承受的真心,眼眶裡的淚水早已決堤而出...
隔天女孩來到年輕人的家,她將第100個絨毛娃娃放到年輕人的手中,這時已經變成植物人的他,眼睛流下了淚水...
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Happy Lunar New Year
Yup...its again Lunar New Year!
To me, nothing special as been so mature really dun really like about this festive. However, it is my first time in these years that i didn't have to work during this holiday seasons. Coz for the past few years working in the Navy, I have to do my duties or sailing on the eve, day1 and day2 of the lunar new year...kinda sad to work. But this year...i dun have...Yeah!
Anyway...Wish all of you guys and gals a HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!
GONG XI FA CHOY!
To me, nothing special as been so mature really dun really like about this festive. However, it is my first time in these years that i didn't have to work during this holiday seasons. Coz for the past few years working in the Navy, I have to do my duties or sailing on the eve, day1 and day2 of the lunar new year...kinda sad to work. But this year...i dun have...Yeah!
Anyway...Wish all of you guys and gals a HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!
GONG XI FA CHOY!
V Day
Its been awhile...I didn't really know what to do for this day coz I really dun really like to spend it and also never happen to celebarte it with someone.
To me...V day is just an ordinary day. But this year abit different...Initially, I wanted to ask her out for dinner but due to her appointment with her family so...I have to foresake it. Anyway...I dunno why i have the courage to make a surprise for her. I just make 36 roses for her. It indicates "MISS YOU" and I just went all the way down to her house to give her. Indeed, she was really surprise for it. But been a stupid fellow, I once again lost my thoughts and didn't express my feelings to her. I guess...once again I will wait for her until she finish her studies.
To myself, it is a breakthrough. This is the first time I really make something for her. Hopefully as time goesby, i wish that there will be more oppununities for me to surprise her.
To me...V day is just an ordinary day. But this year abit different...Initially, I wanted to ask her out for dinner but due to her appointment with her family so...I have to foresake it. Anyway...I dunno why i have the courage to make a surprise for her. I just make 36 roses for her. It indicates "MISS YOU" and I just went all the way down to her house to give her. Indeed, she was really surprise for it. But been a stupid fellow, I once again lost my thoughts and didn't express my feelings to her. I guess...once again I will wait for her until she finish her studies.
To myself, it is a breakthrough. This is the first time I really make something for her. Hopefully as time goesby, i wish that there will be more oppununities for me to surprise her.
Monday, February 12, 2007
Its Over
Yup...finally it is over! Oh i mean is the swimming meet that my training centre conducting. Well...today is the final day and I'm free from the sun coz been a official timer not good loh... Coz have to work under the sun for long hours and nowadays, Mr Sun not very good...keep burning and giving out so much heat...if it don't end soon...I think i goin to get heat stroke liao...Whahaha
Anyway...there are good returns...heehee...tml I'm officially off...Yeah! Guess I have to make good use of tml.
Anyway...there are good returns...heehee...tml I'm officially off...Yeah! Guess I have to make good use of tml.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Something to Share
Well, its been quite a long time that i had never been updating this blog. It is not that I'm really that busy but just feel that alot of things happen around me and I just dun really feel like writing it down.
Anyway, something to share is that I have read about this book called "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom. I strongly recommend to people who really need some inspriation and things that really bother us. In this book, it talks about death, fear, family, marraige, money ant etc.
When i was reading this book, some of the passages do touch me and makes me feel how I can really change better.
Qoute from a passage:
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."
Anyway, something to share is that I have read about this book called "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom. I strongly recommend to people who really need some inspriation and things that really bother us. In this book, it talks about death, fear, family, marraige, money ant etc.
When i was reading this book, some of the passages do touch me and makes me feel how I can really change better.
Qoute from a passage:
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Happy New Year
So fast another year have pass. Here comes a new year! Been living in this world for almost 26 years felt that I really didn't make any good achievements.
Well...really need to buck up myself and set some goals for it.
So my this new year 2007 resolutions are as follows:
1) Spiritual Life
- Attend Cg meetings and Church Service regularly. Know more about God
Although currently I'm stay in camp, hopefully by the end of my course in May. I can start to attend CG meetings. I will make effort to pray everyday and do my daily reflection with God.
2) Family & Friends
- Giving more quality time for family like go out for dinner and vacations.
Since i will be very busy and also unable to take leave until May, hopefully I can plan a vacation with my parents to Taiwan or Hongkong this coming Nov.
- Hope to improve relationship with her.
I know that i didn't been trying very hard on pursuit but coz I really dun want her to feel that I'm a pest. I will still wait for her until she is back on Jul. Maybe i should plan something special...when she is back!
3) Health
- Get Gold for IPPT
Okay, its might be difficult for me to attain Gold award but I must do it...coz for the past 2 years, I only getting a Pass only...must buck up...need to do more push up every night and running everyday at least 3km.
4) Emotional Growth
- Control my anger.
Well, I need to control my anger as it might reflect very bad to myself. So I need to remind myself to control whenever there is a conflict.
5) Education, Intellectual, Professional
- Attain Standard 1 for Indonesian
Okay, i really didn't been putting effort on it. So it is time for me to read up and write and speak Indonesian language daily at least an hr for it. Find someone to teach me during the weekends.
6) Materials
- Debt reduction
Due to large spending, i need to be more thrifty for this year. Spend the necessary items.
- Saving
I set a target to save $10k for this year for my ORD usage as to further my studies on cookery.
7) Leisure
- Vacation
I've plan a short vacation with my parents on the coming Nov to either Taiwan or HongKong
8) Creativity
- New Business ideas.
Actually I've have new business ideas and need to make my own proposal. Hoping to start it on April.
Well...thats all my new year resolutions...and all the best to myself...whahaha
Well...really need to buck up myself and set some goals for it.
So my this new year 2007 resolutions are as follows:
1) Spiritual Life
- Attend Cg meetings and Church Service regularly. Know more about God
Although currently I'm stay in camp, hopefully by the end of my course in May. I can start to attend CG meetings. I will make effort to pray everyday and do my daily reflection with God.
2) Family & Friends
- Giving more quality time for family like go out for dinner and vacations.
Since i will be very busy and also unable to take leave until May, hopefully I can plan a vacation with my parents to Taiwan or Hongkong this coming Nov.
- Hope to improve relationship with her.
I know that i didn't been trying very hard on pursuit but coz I really dun want her to feel that I'm a pest. I will still wait for her until she is back on Jul. Maybe i should plan something special...when she is back!
3) Health
- Get Gold for IPPT
Okay, its might be difficult for me to attain Gold award but I must do it...coz for the past 2 years, I only getting a Pass only...must buck up...need to do more push up every night and running everyday at least 3km.
4) Emotional Growth
- Control my anger.
Well, I need to control my anger as it might reflect very bad to myself. So I need to remind myself to control whenever there is a conflict.
5) Education, Intellectual, Professional
- Attain Standard 1 for Indonesian
Okay, i really didn't been putting effort on it. So it is time for me to read up and write and speak Indonesian language daily at least an hr for it. Find someone to teach me during the weekends.
6) Materials
- Debt reduction
Due to large spending, i need to be more thrifty for this year. Spend the necessary items.
- Saving
I set a target to save $10k for this year for my ORD usage as to further my studies on cookery.
7) Leisure
- Vacation
I've plan a short vacation with my parents on the coming Nov to either Taiwan or HongKong
8) Creativity
- New Business ideas.
Actually I've have new business ideas and need to make my own proposal. Hoping to start it on April.
Well...thats all my new year resolutions...and all the best to myself...whahaha
