Yellow Card

Well...kinda sad for the past few days coz I just awarded a yellow card. Because on Mon, my ship have a R3 inspection and just once we slip off. I dunno why just off form of my usual self on that day. My sighting of contacts around the vincity kinda part and pieces. Informations are just jumper around.

Somehow I think I was too focus not to do wrong but in the end, I still make this major mistake and especially during this major inspection.

May be I was too tense up as there are so many high ranking officers looking at us and the fear just got over me...

Anyway a lesson learn. I should relax myself and don't be too tense and focus on the things I need to do, not on the people.

After the incident, I pray and the following day, I'm back to usual self and everything got back to normal but my XO commented how come I was off form. I didn't say much just maybe the anxiety just got over me.

Well, during my quiet time somehow remember Jane give me the book for my brithday gift. I open my bible and read Matthew 14:27~33. It is just as I'm facing...

Somehow I have the courage to get out of my comfort zone but i didn't focus it that cause me to sink. The faith that I have is so little. But after this lesson learn, I have some revelation as sometimes we are too satisfied on our level and we dun really want to step out of our confort zone. As time goes by, we dunno how strong is our faith. Thats why we need to get out of our comfort zone and walk on the water. Even if we didn't make it much, it is a test for our faith.

On this incident, I took my courage to accept the failure. And learn that even failure it will still increase my faith as I will always remember and won't commit the same mistake and next time i will perform better and great.

Thank you. Jesus for the words you have answer to me.