Troubles...

There are alot of things happen around me and yet i didn't making any effort to find someone to told about it. I know that the more i keep it to myself, i will start worry more and evntually just cannot take it.

Why i prefer keeping to myself than finding someone that i will speak up. Coz in my life i didn't make effort finding friends or my family...i always just a wanderer, aloner. Maybe it is just an excuse for it but I just dun wan anyone to start worry about me...

Well, maybe i think too much or consider for others but thats my character. Lately, my life had been a mess.

I know helping my friend to settle his loan and now there is a slight problem occuring and I guess i have to ensure everythings to be settle ASAP.

Another thing is that I abit worry about my mother that she told me that she mostly won't be have the energy to continue to work and my brother also will be starting to commence his studies this coming april and things just came in wave...I dunno how long i can hold on... Mostly i just want to pray for the brightest thing or miriacle to happen.

However, another things that really worries my is that will i able to leave the force in 2009? Its been a question mark for me. I still haven save up the money for me to study and I'm just afraid will I able to survive for the time when i leave the force.

I really dunno...all I need is to have financial freedom and able for me to breakthrough to serve to Lord.

Pray very very hard and hope for the best and wish my dark sky will clear!