Working hard but doesn't Gain

Last week, gone for a entire 5 days of sailing. During the entire sailing been trying very hard and seems that the superiors only think about themselves but didn't bother to think of the mens.

Why I have such a big issue? Well, I know everyone is trying there best to do perform, but the more haste less speed...I dunno whether the Officers know about this. But I was totally drain out for the first 2 days. For the first day, we are very busy with own things and hoping to settle it before we gone for sailing and everyone is tired by then in the afternoon. And once we set sail in the evening, drills come in and keep on playing until midnight. Even worst, my watch was allocated on 3am till 7am, which means...I only sleep max of 3 hrs but thats not all. After handing over the watch at 7am, I thought that I have an hour of sleep but nope. Just before 8am, the officers were so "Spider" that they started the serials for the day. As a flight deck specialist, I need to rush up and suit up myself and prep for helo landing. We waited until 10am, then the commencing of the helo landing. Stupid rite? But I must thank God for protecting me coz I was so tired that when I went to receive the seahawk helo which is the first time receiving this type of helo, I am not very sure where to lash it. I was task to lash at the rear part and not knowning that the rear rotary blade was just a few meters away from me...maybe i was too focus on finding the lashing point, if i walk to the rear even more, I don't think I will be blogging now...Hahaha

After the helo landing serial finish which took 4 landing and by then it was around 12 noon and we still need to keep the gears and I was totally wet after all the physical execrise. I quickly went for a quick bathe and after changing a new sets of clothes, the pipe for next serial. I didn't even have my lunch. I was abit fed up by this time. So I went to manned my station and just I request for going for my lunch as we still have enough time and people to rotate before the serial starts.

But what is the answer they give? Why don't u call up the chef to reserve a pack for you. Okay...since like that I cannot deny. So I make a call to reserve it. So i got to bare thru which tired and hunger for another 2 hrs.

After the end of the serial, I quickly rush down to the gallery(kitchen) to garb my reserve pack food but guess what, the chef throw away all the food and I was so boil up. I just went to the dining hall and garb my drink and some of my colleagues ask why my face so dark. I just tell them the truth and continue to close up my watch.

To me, it is not just food, but why should we work so hard and the higher rank don't eveen bother to check up on us if we have our lunch or does we have hydrate ourselves before any serial. Don't really feel like working onboard this ship. The officers only think about themselves does they really care about us?

I just have the thought of doing my job mininal and thats all. But does that gain for us too? I really dunno... alot of my colleagues are hard-hearted and they dun feel like working for the ship...

It seems the old days have gone...I still remember the days where we gone thru hardship and we still are happy but after the new management...everything seems wrong.

Maybe my decision is correct...when time to move, i will move