Love
Well, kinda have the urgh to say about this after someone told me about her problems. As a listener, I dunno how to give good advices as I dun have much relationship happening around me. I know its kinda a funny and I dunno why people tends to find me for advice. Am I a love counseller or what. Feel so stress and pressure coz I dun want to give empty advice that make someone changes her mind set.
However, kinda hurt seeing one and other having problems on love relationship. I dunno how to help them. This really making myself to ponder whether am I really to good enough to enter a relationship. I can't really force myself to cheat someone or even myself. I know that in the upcoming future...i will be having financial difficulties as I will soon become a overseas student. I dunno whether I can stand on to the long distance relationship. This really makes me to think alot whether I should really go after her.
God, I'm praying that you can lead me the way that what i should really do.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Specialist Enhancement Programme
For the past whole week, my lecture was all about communication and managnment. I found this programme very good as it really give me alot of things to ponder.
Just like how to be a active listener, and write good communication. Moreover, I also learn to understand my audience as different people have different personalities and using D.I.S.C behaviour. It can easily know what kind of people I am working with.
Beside these, I learn how to set my goals using SMART -> Specific, Measurable, Achieveable, Reality and Time. With these, I am able to grab and work towards my goals. Moreover, I also need to find out what is my driving and restraining force that hinder my goal. With all these, I also need to find out my motivation to aim for my goal. There are alot of things that I have learn. Beside these, I also learn how to adapt changes and even before there is any changes, we need to be observe coz there will be always indication on changes. Fear using came in for the first time when changes came. Once we overcome it, we will sure find our ways.
To me, I know after 3 years. I will be leaving the service. So it is time for me to list our my driving force and restraining force. With that, I can able to tackle the restraining force asap. Moreover, goal that i going to set...must set high even if can't achieve, believe that it won't have must difference is I am going to work extra harder and smarter.
So now all i need to do is to set my goal and pray that i can achieve in the very best.
For the past whole week, my lecture was all about communication and managnment. I found this programme very good as it really give me alot of things to ponder.
Just like how to be a active listener, and write good communication. Moreover, I also learn to understand my audience as different people have different personalities and using D.I.S.C behaviour. It can easily know what kind of people I am working with.
Beside these, I learn how to set my goals using SMART -> Specific, Measurable, Achieveable, Reality and Time. With these, I am able to grab and work towards my goals. Moreover, I also need to find out what is my driving and restraining force that hinder my goal. With all these, I also need to find out my motivation to aim for my goal. There are alot of things that I have learn. Beside these, I also learn how to adapt changes and even before there is any changes, we need to be observe coz there will be always indication on changes. Fear using came in for the first time when changes came. Once we overcome it, we will sure find our ways.
To me, I know after 3 years. I will be leaving the service. So it is time for me to list our my driving force and restraining force. With that, I can able to tackle the restraining force asap. Moreover, goal that i going to set...must set high even if can't achieve, believe that it won't have must difference is I am going to work extra harder and smarter.
So now all i need to do is to set my goal and pray that i can achieve in the very best.
Friday, September 15, 2006
POC (Petty Officer Course)
Finally start my Petty Officer Course. I am going to train to be a leader to lead men in future. Well...after going thru this week...I can say, I'm too slack in the past and now I am suffering...Urgh, now my whole body is aching.Why? Coz too long never excerise and this few days kena tekan jalat jalat.
Anyway after a week of familarsation, we are bound to speak any foregin language except English. Kind of difficult to change coz most of the time, on board ship we tend to speak in Chinese. If kena caught by SI or any instructors, we sure kena pump or so call do push up.
Life in IMOS is really terrible coz everyday sure got rounds...and no other entertainment. Pretty boring rite? Anyway...we got team building challenge on thu and fri. It is a 2 day event...and we really have alot of "FUN" coz actually my OC thinking was to gel up the whole cohort so punishment was given to whole lot of us. Wat to do...have to LL do loh...
But anyway...still got 11 weeks to go...got to bare with it
Finally start my Petty Officer Course. I am going to train to be a leader to lead men in future. Well...after going thru this week...I can say, I'm too slack in the past and now I am suffering...Urgh, now my whole body is aching.Why? Coz too long never excerise and this few days kena tekan jalat jalat.
Anyway after a week of familarsation, we are bound to speak any foregin language except English. Kind of difficult to change coz most of the time, on board ship we tend to speak in Chinese. If kena caught by SI or any instructors, we sure kena pump or so call do push up.
Life in IMOS is really terrible coz everyday sure got rounds...and no other entertainment. Pretty boring rite? Anyway...we got team building challenge on thu and fri. It is a 2 day event...and we really have alot of "FUN" coz actually my OC thinking was to gel up the whole cohort so punishment was given to whole lot of us. Wat to do...have to LL do loh...
But anyway...still got 11 weeks to go...got to bare with it
Monday, September 11, 2006
Alex's & Naomi's Birthday
Well, forgot to blog yesterday as we celebrate Alex's birthday @ Girrafe just beside the Istana Park. Well, first time visit the restraunt. Found it quite nice and we got a function room. Its quite fun for the session as we sabo Alex. Michelle and Robin mix a special garlic bread for him and when his food is up...we put it into his dish. Eventually he eat a small portion of it...it tastes funny. Whahaha...oh please forgive us. Once a year...heehee. Anyway after that everyone went back home, as I send Fiona back to Tampines coz she need to rush down to her friend's father wake. She kinda angry coz her jiemeis never inform her. Hope nothing happens.
Today, celebrate Naomi's birthday at Pasta Mania @ Cineleisure but before that, I'm meet up with William, Darren and Eldin for window shopping coz I currently sourcing a gym bag for my sis that she requested. However, I still cannot find. Well...I also went to Far East to search for the typical type but still no seen of any similar. So went to Orchard MRT to wait for Raymond and Allan coz we need to get prepare for Naomi's birthday. Anyway they are late again...haiz! let me waited for 1/2 hr.
Well, we went to Coffee bean to have some coffee and relax abit before 7pm. Coz giving surprise for Naomi. We got a cake from Breadtalk and make our way to Pasta Mania and celebrate for Naomi's surprise birthday. Although the turnout not so good but still hope that she enjoys. Coz only Raymond, Allan, Jian Hai, Weisong, Giam Chong and me celebrate for her...whahaha
Oh, pray for Naomi's right hand get well soon coz she got a sprain on it.
Well, forgot to blog yesterday as we celebrate Alex's birthday @ Girrafe just beside the Istana Park. Well, first time visit the restraunt. Found it quite nice and we got a function room. Its quite fun for the session as we sabo Alex. Michelle and Robin mix a special garlic bread for him and when his food is up...we put it into his dish. Eventually he eat a small portion of it...it tastes funny. Whahaha...oh please forgive us. Once a year...heehee. Anyway after that everyone went back home, as I send Fiona back to Tampines coz she need to rush down to her friend's father wake. She kinda angry coz her jiemeis never inform her. Hope nothing happens.
Today, celebrate Naomi's birthday at Pasta Mania @ Cineleisure but before that, I'm meet up with William, Darren and Eldin for window shopping coz I currently sourcing a gym bag for my sis that she requested. However, I still cannot find. Well...I also went to Far East to search for the typical type but still no seen of any similar. So went to Orchard MRT to wait for Raymond and Allan coz we need to get prepare for Naomi's birthday. Anyway they are late again...haiz! let me waited for 1/2 hr.
Well, we went to Coffee bean to have some coffee and relax abit before 7pm. Coz giving surprise for Naomi. We got a cake from Breadtalk and make our way to Pasta Mania and celebrate for Naomi's surprise birthday. Although the turnout not so good but still hope that she enjoys. Coz only Raymond, Allan, Jian Hai, Weisong, Giam Chong and me celebrate for her...whahaha
Oh, pray for Naomi's right hand get well soon coz she got a sprain on it.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Life & Dreams
Well, today went to Hashita's farewell BBQ party as he is leaving Singapore soon to UK for his futher studies. Well, it seems after 3 years alot of us have our own dreams and life to fufill. Like Chee Siew, he been busy with his father's business at China even he got his own work commitment.
Very envy on them that now they can fufill their dreams. Not like me...I just a ordinary person. I want to be abit extordinary. Is it my mindset is not set properly? No...i just afraid...afraid of been losing out to my peers. Life in me seems useless...sometimes I don't even dare to dream of my future. I afraid that I couldn't survive in this world. I in doubt that whether I can really give someone happiness for the rest of her life. I can't make promise.
Thats why I still remains single. Alot of my friends keep on asking why I still single...bah bah bah... coz I am inferior that I can't be a good boyfriend or even a good husband. Thats why I keep my feelings inside and remains as friends. Maybe I too silly...well...its better to be friends as I don't want them to regret.
Well, after all the thoughts...I begin to question myself...am I really good for her? I know that I've have feelings for her...but does she have the feeling towards me?
I really in a dilema coz I have no intention to get married so fast coz by the time 2009. I will be ORD and i will be starting my new career and I might be going overseas to study my culinary skills and by the time i came back I will be around 30 years old. 5 years...will someone willing to wait for me? Thats why i don't want to get attach soon...coz managing a relationship for so long is tough and anything can happen at this long period of time.
Well...right now all I have to do is to concerntrate on my work and put more effort on researching new recipes and new culinary skills. All i need to do is depend on my fate.
Well, today went to Hashita's farewell BBQ party as he is leaving Singapore soon to UK for his futher studies. Well, it seems after 3 years alot of us have our own dreams and life to fufill. Like Chee Siew, he been busy with his father's business at China even he got his own work commitment.
Very envy on them that now they can fufill their dreams. Not like me...I just a ordinary person. I want to be abit extordinary. Is it my mindset is not set properly? No...i just afraid...afraid of been losing out to my peers. Life in me seems useless...sometimes I don't even dare to dream of my future. I afraid that I couldn't survive in this world. I in doubt that whether I can really give someone happiness for the rest of her life. I can't make promise.
Thats why I still remains single. Alot of my friends keep on asking why I still single...bah bah bah... coz I am inferior that I can't be a good boyfriend or even a good husband. Thats why I keep my feelings inside and remains as friends. Maybe I too silly...well...its better to be friends as I don't want them to regret.
Well, after all the thoughts...I begin to question myself...am I really good for her? I know that I've have feelings for her...but does she have the feeling towards me?
I really in a dilema coz I have no intention to get married so fast coz by the time 2009. I will be ORD and i will be starting my new career and I might be going overseas to study my culinary skills and by the time i came back I will be around 30 years old. 5 years...will someone willing to wait for me? Thats why i don't want to get attach soon...coz managing a relationship for so long is tough and anything can happen at this long period of time.
Well...right now all I have to do is to concerntrate on my work and put more effort on researching new recipes and new culinary skills. All i need to do is depend on my fate.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
POC Here I come
Well...Finally, yesterday receive the news that I can go to my POC course. Thank God! So even yesterday I'm still on leave, I got to rush back to clear and return my stores coz I considered as posting out of the ship.
So on Monday 9/11, I got to report back to the Naval School at change. Anyway there are pros and cons going back to school for training. Got to stay in, not much freedom and still got to march here and there. But after the course, I will get my promotion to 1SG. Yes and that means pay increament...heehee
Anyway, I guess all I need is to pray for smooth progress in the school training. Thanks what I going to hope for.
Well...Finally, yesterday receive the news that I can go to my POC course. Thank God! So even yesterday I'm still on leave, I got to rush back to clear and return my stores coz I considered as posting out of the ship.
So on Monday 9/11, I got to report back to the Naval School at change. Anyway there are pros and cons going back to school for training. Got to stay in, not much freedom and still got to march here and there. But after the course, I will get my promotion to 1SG. Yes and that means pay increament...heehee
Anyway, I guess all I need is to pray for smooth progress in the school training. Thanks what I going to hope for.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Akeelah And The Bee
Well, recently just downloaded this movie and watch it. Well...first time heard about spelling bee was during the CHC Emerge Conference this year and witness the power of children spelling different words range from Latin, Greek and ETC...
For those who didn't know what i mean, check out this movie. Its great for the kids to watch and there are alot of inspritation for them.
Here is something that really makes me remember where i watch "Coach Carter". It is a passage that really make me think who do I really fear. Thats Me!
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
a return to love - by marianne williamson
Well, recently just downloaded this movie and watch it. Well...first time heard about spelling bee was during the CHC Emerge Conference this year and witness the power of children spelling different words range from Latin, Greek and ETC...
For those who didn't know what i mean, check out this movie. Its great for the kids to watch and there are alot of inspritation for them.
Here is something that really makes me remember where i watch "Coach Carter". It is a passage that really make me think who do I really fear. Thats Me!
This is the passage that was used in the movie and also the movie "Coach Carter"
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."
a return to love - by marianne williamson
Hope this really give us a second of thoughts in our mind and go and catch this movie.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Tired
Well...its been a week doing nothing at home and feel so boring...whahaha. Anyway friday went over to Raymond's House (one of YDC member) to do jig saw puzzle for Naomi Birthday Present. Well, kena play out by the others coz initial alot of them agree to help out but ended up only Raymond, Allan and Me doing the puzzle (with the help of Emily and Weisong for the beginning)
Anyway we took 5hrs to do the 1000 pieces...wow thats long rite coz we were busy chatting and eating....muahahaha....anyway after that went to the nearby Mac for breakfast.
My dear Raymond give me wrong direction and make me walk a big round coz i couldn't find the bus stop that have bus 87. So no choice have to took the LRT back to Sengkang...well...thats my first time taking LRT....(mountain tortise sia) . Anyway took a nap all the way back to Bedok.
Later part of the day, went to HSA for my blood donation appointment. Well...after a night of tonning...shouldn't go donate but still i went. The more suay is that i kena 10 cycle of apheresis. Sian 1/2...
Well, this end of the month can donate again liao...need to hit the target...Jia you! Jia You!
Well...its been a week doing nothing at home and feel so boring...whahaha. Anyway friday went over to Raymond's House (one of YDC member) to do jig saw puzzle for Naomi Birthday Present. Well, kena play out by the others coz initial alot of them agree to help out but ended up only Raymond, Allan and Me doing the puzzle (with the help of Emily and Weisong for the beginning)
Anyway we took 5hrs to do the 1000 pieces...wow thats long rite coz we were busy chatting and eating....muahahaha....anyway after that went to the nearby Mac for breakfast.
My dear Raymond give me wrong direction and make me walk a big round coz i couldn't find the bus stop that have bus 87. So no choice have to took the LRT back to Sengkang...well...thats my first time taking LRT....(mountain tortise sia) . Anyway took a nap all the way back to Bedok.
Later part of the day, went to HSA for my blood donation appointment. Well...after a night of tonning...shouldn't go donate but still i went. The more suay is that i kena 10 cycle of apheresis. Sian 1/2...
Well, this end of the month can donate again liao...need to hit the target...Jia you! Jia You!
