God Please Show Me the Way!

I dunno whether I should write this or not...coz after much thinking I decided to write it coz I know that she won't be reading this also...

I dunno how to start this but it seems i really now dunno wat I am writing now coz my mind is really blank off. All I think is about her...well, we neither have started nor ended...my relationship between her just as a friend...a friend that only talk in SMS and MSN. We never talk thru the phone nor meet up for any dates. Am i silly? Yup...i guess so...I dunno why, maybe I scared that the relationship maybe gone...I just wan her to know that I care for her but i dun even dare to tell her the truth...

Everytime we talk about our life and wats happening around us...and everytime thru the chatting, I get to know her better...but I just dun have the guts to ask her out...coz i'm scare of rejection...I just struck there...

Everyday, I will be there online just waiting for her to online...hoping to chat wif her for couple of sentence then I will be very happy...

However, time dun really allow us...her applications have approve and now selecting her uni. I know she will be away for further studies on her degree this coming mid year. I really dunno now... I know I might be selfish if I wish she didn't have to go overseas for further studies but its her future...Who am I off hers...i dun have close relationship with her so how can i ask her to stay...well, maybe I need to calm down this moment...

I hope she will be always happy...no matter how long it takes...i will wait for her... People may think i silly but it is very difficult for a person like me to forget about this relationship....haiz!

God! I really need you to answer my prayer...I...just wan her happy...

Now i need to hurry up with the things i going to prepare for her...hope she like it...

Wat a stupid silly guy...