Relationship

Today my topic is about relationship. Why I wanted to talk about it because throughout this week alot of people been asking me why I still single and moreover, as this coming Lunur New Year festive seasons. Sure alot of friends and relatives will ask about me when geting married or have any girlfriend.

I dunno how to express myself on the relationship. Maybe Ya Lan was right, guys are too analyitical. As we think too much what other may think and in the end, we tend to lose out and back to square one. Haiz!

Somehow I really giving myself too many reasons to get attach with someone. Like work commitment, other volunteering works. I think this all can change or even reduce to the lifestyle we want to go for.

For me, I am just afraid of getting into a relationship because I afraid that I cannot give her happiness. I dun wan my partner to suffer with me. Sometimes I think too much that I am end up giving up. I also afraid of rejection from someone to like.

Haiz...alot of people say I am nice that I am able to find a girl easily but maybe I just been nice and end up every girl that I know and interested soon become good friends. But as time goes by, those likeness soon become normal and I begin to treat them just like everyone. I will take note everyone the likes n hates. The more I get to know them, I become a brother to them and I begin to think that they are so good which can find someone better than me.

Haiz...I still cannot cross over this barrier. If i can really breakthrough this, I surely will get a partner. Maybe in 10 yrs later. Hahaha

Anyway, this whole week been pressure by Ya Lan and even my volunteering friends asking why.

All I need is to pray to God that He can provide me with guidiance and enhance my courage and boldness to ask or invite a gal for a dinner or so. Beside that, I also pray for the sensetiveness with my words when having conversations with people.

Now I am in a dilema that the come Ship Anniversary Dinner and Dance that I need a partner but I still havn't found one yet. Headache...Now really need to ask God for help.