God Please Show Me the Way!

I dunno whether I should write this or not...coz after much thinking I decided to write it coz I know that she won't be reading this also...

I dunno how to start this but it seems i really now dunno wat I am writing now coz my mind is really blank off. All I think is about her...well, we neither have started nor ended...my relationship between her just as a friend...a friend that only talk in SMS and MSN. We never talk thru the phone nor meet up for any dates. Am i silly? Yup...i guess so...I dunno why, maybe I scared that the relationship maybe gone...I just wan her to know that I care for her but i dun even dare to tell her the truth...

Everytime we talk about our life and wats happening around us...and everytime thru the chatting, I get to know her better...but I just dun have the guts to ask her out...coz i'm scare of rejection...I just struck there...

Everyday, I will be there online just waiting for her to online...hoping to chat wif her for couple of sentence then I will be very happy...

However, time dun really allow us...her applications have approve and now selecting her uni. I know she will be away for further studies on her degree this coming mid year. I really dunno now... I know I might be selfish if I wish she didn't have to go overseas for further studies but its her future...Who am I off hers...i dun have close relationship with her so how can i ask her to stay...well, maybe I need to calm down this moment...

I hope she will be always happy...no matter how long it takes...i will wait for her... People may think i silly but it is very difficult for a person like me to forget about this relationship....haiz!

God! I really need you to answer my prayer...I...just wan her happy...

Now i need to hurry up with the things i going to prepare for her...hope she like it...

Wat a stupid silly guy...

My first food and dessert blog

Finally I just make a new blog on my food and dessert that i keen on it. It is mainly on recipe that i have try out certain recipe that i done and would like to share it to my friends. If any question can give me comments on it. Thanks

Here is my food and dessert blog address:
http://bochupdafooddessert.blogspot.com/

BEEN FORUNATE OR NOT

Its been very long time that I have not been updating my blog. It seems that i going to close down this blog soon. Anyway my answer is NO. But will try my best to keep a constant update on it...

Well, dunno why today wanted to blog coz there is a sudden urge i wanted to write this incident that i saw this afternoon onboard the train when i was going back home.

It happen when this lady step in the train with her two children. One is a elder sister and the other one is a younger brother. I was in a sleeping mode when this young little kid started to make a loud bang on the door, and waken me coz I was sitting near to the exit. In the begining, I was quite angry coz sleep so good and kena waken by someone very tulan...anyway...this young boy keep hitting the door and i cannot fall asleep again liao. I wanted to tell the mother, but alot of ppl on the train so i ignore again...

The train getting less ppl when it reaches to kallang station and happen the elder sister and the mother is sitting quite next to me so as the young boy...saw his face expression. The eyes are red and the mother started questioning him. He say that why sis took his half portion of M&M and refuse to give him the other half. Oh...great! kids, really small small things need to bring out meh...but his mother was very patiently explain to him that if his sister wants just let her have it. The words that hit me it that, she told him that "sis cannot eat alot of candy and why you just can't give it to her as your mouth can taste more candies than her. You are better forunate to taste alot of candy than her." Yup, the elder sister is really abit handicapped. Coz i saw she communicate with her mother using hand signs and her face not that normal. Maybe she got certain disease that she need to keep away certain food.

After these words...i started think that am i forunate...coz i am healthlier than those who are now fighting with diease or maybe some are born handicapped. I'm luckily to be born healthly. Sometimes we should really think of these ppl. Wat will we going to do if we are in their shoes? I really dunno...so if really needed, we really neeed to spare some thoughts on this handicapped ppl.

Life may not be the as smooth as wat we think. There are ups and downs period. But if we are just like those handicapped ppl, we will be always in the down period coz no one will give us a spare thought somemore ppl will give certain sight on it.

Well, maybe really need to look in to these handicapped ppl. Spend some of care and concern to them.